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It's bad mom's voice quivered over the phone I could tell that she was crying I hated to hear my mom cry I'd die a thousand deaths not to hear her start sniffling how bad I asked choking back tears of my own I don't know she cleared her throat we're trying to get the next flight out but everything's booked up my parents had never gone on vacation in all the years that I've lived it wasn't easy raising a kid on minimum wages no job was permanent either but the little they had they were able to work their way up in industries they had entered out of desperation I highly doubt my mother aspired to a life in retail where she'd miss holidays and soccer practices no one wants to clean up another man's but my father never bitched when he came home with sustained coveralls there was always food in my stomach even if they had to skip a meal now that I have left the house and went away to college at first I might add they could save up for themselves so this vacation was huge for them this was the first time they traveled to another country let alone out of the southeast it's only fitting they did it be cut short due to emergency I'll go I said no no she coughed you can't you have finals I'll get an extension I said family comes first I can't ask you to do that I want to we'll be there as soon as we can okay I said I've got this don't worry be careful I will I love you love you too it was 1:30 3:00 in the morning an ungodly hour and certainly not one in which you want to receive a phone call from your mom I woke up before the phone rung and seeing mom flash over the screen sent me into a mini panic attack I knew nothing good would come from answering their phone and yet I had no choice but to press talk I had to go I owed it to them I owed it to everyone my professor was known to arrive at his office incredibly early to write the book he assigned for classes his own self-published book my writing highlighted his writing process he'd like to finish his classes in the early afternoon eat dinner as a late lunch spent some time thinking about his dead wife and be in bed by 5:00 in the evening hopefully he didn't feel like sleeping in today I needed to talk to him as soon as possible I got to the English department doors around 2:00 they were locked so I had to wait my back slid down the brick wall and I hugged my knees the camp is set with an eerie stillness in the middle of the night resembling an oil painting in the blurred vision of my crying eyes I felt like the only person left alive my breath billowed out into the unusually cold January air and a shadow shifted beyond the trees a dark figure scuttled into the reach of a lamppost and James Mason's hair swung wildly from its recent bout with a pillow his eyes hung heavy and his potato-sack eyelids and I stood up when he got close I haven't even had my coffee yet professor Mason groaned I'm sorry I said you wouldn't be here if you had good news no I say I guess I wouldn't bad news can never wait professor Mason unlocked the doors and nearly fell through he disappeared into the shadows of the dark office and I stood there petrified over what he might say he wasn't waiting up for me and that's for sure the door swung closed and I caught it before it could snap shut I entered the empty office and listened for a clue as to which direction the professor went it was utterly silent a light flicked on in one of the back rooms a walk down the hall and looked in on professor Mason's sacred writing ritual he took out a hot plate plugged it in poured water from his thermos into a teapot and let it heat up I was too afraid to break the peaceful silence of his tasks he set up a French press and poured in fresh ground coffee beans and he waited by leaning back in his chair and staring at me with a nonchalant amusement it'll give higher grades for sexual favors he said if that's what you're thinking no I said disgustingly of course not now what the hell are you doing here okay I said breathing deeply in an attempt to calm my raging heart my grandmother's in bad shape she fell and hit her head and my grandpa can't take care of her on his own and my parents are overseas so I have to know what you want an extension on your exam and term paper [ __ ] he had me at a loss yeah but no but listen to me he said clasping his hands together leaning forward with his elbows on the desk and softening his voice life won't pause at your convenience my grandma I heard you [ __ ] you I thought I couldn't even say my name at this point anger consumed me and I wanted to smash his ratty little face into the desk shattering his framed family photos look he turned his back on me and rummaged through a cabinet drawer he pulled a stack of papers from a folder and slapped them on the desk you can take the exam right now but I doubt you finished the paper yet no I said shallowly I haven't those are the only two grades for the entire semester he waited for my acknowledgment I could only nod my head numb Lee so either way you'd fail I looked over his smug smirk and came to a finite decision it was either be there for my grandparents or pass the class some deep dark part of me thought of a third option kill him I dropped out of college right then and there I'll never put work or school or some [ __ ] obligation over my family I saw how that affected my mom and dad I saw how it wore them down with each missed opportunity I'd stand midfield and look to the sidelines without them there the packed bleachers always felt so miserably empty that's not the life I want to lead I took off northbound on i-95 from Miami my grandparents lived on Myrtle Beach so I had a good 10 to 12 hours ahead of me I left in a rush and it wasn't long before I had to pull off the highway to take a piss I hit up a rest stop for some relief the moment I stepped out of a car the stars struck me with all their glistening glory my engine popped and sizzled under the hood it was like the universe was passing through me and not the other way around I felt at ease by the freedom of the expense it crushed by the nothingness of the space around me it was one of those smaller rest stops with bathrooms on either side and a vending machine in the middle I hurried inside a stall I have a thing about being seen when I pee and damn near exploded before I got my junk over my basketball shorts I let out of breath and I was like my soul was squeezed out of me I was left with an ultimately satisfying calm that was shattered when the door swung open and slammed shut with a deafening echo I jumped my nerves went haywire and a quiver spasmed up my neck too hard boots stomped down with each heel and slept the tiles with the toes two-timed methodical and menacing they clocked over to my stall and settled before me the massive weight in those boots crushed the dirt with a prickling precision he pulled on the handle and the locks smacked against the door jamb the door shuddered as he frantically pumped the door against the hinges then he released the handle and stepped back into the corner the fluorescent lights burnt out and the bathroom fell dark the silence made the air heavier I could hear breathing from the corner I'm not a big guy so I braced myself to be mauled by a monstrous beast the breathing ceased and I was left with my pulse pounding against the walls of my brain I waited for someone to make a move but it felt like I was the only one here to do so I couldn't tell you how long I stood there trembling with fear what the [ __ ] did this guy want money sex the thrill of acquiring both hello I called out without thinking and I was met by an empty echo ten minutes went by before I turned on my phone flashlight and Seana through the cracks in the door I couldn't see anything through the slit I bent down and flashed the light in the corner no shoes no feet no one it must have been bugging out I mean I hadn't slept for more than two hours that night I just jumped right on the road and tossed caution out the window maybe I needed a couple of hours sleep in the car yeah that's what the door lock crashed against the jamb with the force of a kick and I nearly fell into the toilet I desperately sought an escape from the coffin-sized walls there was only one thing I could do fight or flight I unlocked the door and drove my shoulder through it expecting to be met by a wall of meat and bones and organs but instead smacked right into the tile wall I swung my cell light around and revealed an empty room I checked the other stool ready for murder nothing there was nothing my head throbbed I needed to eat yeah that's it I got sour patch kids and a soda from the vending machine sugar could keep me going another couple of hours I couldn't sleep here I turned to the car and my shadow stretched out before me standing at the end of it was a man blacked out by the night his features were hidden under the streetlamp sharp glare I was frozen with fear expecting him to rush me with the fury of a demon he just stood there in the empty parking lot watching me as I watched him no other cars were around did he walk here who walks to a rest stop maybe he was some truck driver hopped up on meth I took a step forward and so did he heading on a diagonal to cut me off from my car i stalled for a moment as did he we were trying to read the others next move here we go I broke out into a sprint to the driver's side door and he rushed to the passenger side I unlocked the car with my fob and pulled open the door throwing myself inside the door slams shut and I double-click the lock button the doors clicked and there was a thud against the passenger door the car rocked on its shocks the handle jiggled furiously accidentally hit the panic button and the yellow lights blinked to the sound of a de-stressing horn I turned the ignition kicked it into reverse and drove the [ __ ] out of there I glanced into the rearview and the shadow just watched me as he sunk in the distance making no more effort to chase after me even with the red brake lights reflecting off the trees around him he stayed sunken in darkness merging onto the highway my mind went on cruise control when the sky began to lighten I was taken aback by my surroundings a light fog hung between the trees lining the highway like a hammock and a lazy deer grazed on the grass and mere feet from the concrete there was no way that I could have traveled so far in a single night the land was flat and marshy and dominated by longleaf pines I must have broken all known traffic laws last night the shadows of the grazing deer got closer to the road and I decided it'd be best to slow down but like falling into a speed trap where the limit goes from 70 to 35 I was too late a deer crossed into my lane and I tugged on the wheel swerving to avoid it the deer stood dumb to the danger staring at me like the specter at the rest stop my cast spun out of control and crossed over to the median and into the southbound lanes the car nearly tipped when I finally came to a screeching stop my heart was racing and I looked back over to the northbound lanes the deer had fled with his life I never felt more alive and burst into the happiest of tears I could smell the burnt tires and the overworked engine my flesh tingled with electric spasms I was alive by the grace of God there were no cars coming at me so I had a moment to collect myself once I got back on the highway I felt an overwhelming thankfulness and sob freely thank you thank you thank you I kept whispering I turned on the music and the melodies never sounded so pure I opened the windows and the Earth's aroma filled my lungs with purpose wind ran through my fingers tickling my hairs thank you a couple of miles down the road red and blue flashing lights emerged over the horizon on the southbound lanes the lanes were completely blocked off and a column of headlines idled in anticipation as I got closer I slowed to see a team of emergency responders working on a total car they took their time the car looked familiar like I drove side-by-side with him at some point in the night smoke rose from the engine and the mangled body of a deer was crushed in the grill a gurney was loaded with a limp body and carted slowly to the back of an ambulance there was no need to rush the poor guy was a goner once again I cried knowing that it could have been me no it should have been me I was grateful and found peace never having to go back to school such things were so miniscule in the grand scheme of things I was barreling down u.s. 17 just north of Charleston when I heard the tire blow the car jolted and sunk down on the rear passenger axle I pulled over to the side of the road to inspect and I found a slash along the side it was amazing to me that the bubble had held on for this long must have happened when I miss the deer a creeping part of me thought otherwise something lingered inside of me whispering that it was the man at the rest stop he did this he's responsible for all of it of course that was nonsense he didn't step out in front of my car he didn't push my grandmother over in the bathroom he probably wasn't even real just a hallucination in my mind i limp my way to the nearest exit and got off this wasn't your typical highway exit there were no gas stations no fast food options just abandoned food and fireworks stands surrounded by an endless woods I must have crept for nearly three miles every minute worried me more I was probably doing serious damage to the rim a costly misfortune I couldn't dream of affording eventually the woods opened up to a small town forgotten by time the cars were vintage and kept in mint condition the kids ran about in front of their homes in their Sunday best women strode down the sidewalk gossiping under meticulously groomed poodle clips soft Bob's and pageboy hairstyles their dresses were simple but elegant the men had cropped hair and their neutral button downs were tucked into slacks that rested near their belly buttons the town was buzzing with activity in the golden glare of the High Noon Sun I pulled into the parking lot of a piggly-wiggly the sign above the supermarket was a large blue circle with a pale yellow cartoon pig smiling at me while wearing a white triangular service hat cocked on the side of his head I got out of the car and looked down at the sunken rim [ __ ] I popped the trunk and lifted the hatch to the spare tire and got out the iron and the jack looking at them as if they were alien objects this was one thing my father never had the chance to teach me another casualty to his busy schedule I didn't know what the hell I was going to do with these useless objects maybe I could check the menu howdy a voice chimed from behind me I turned and saw a man wearing a tucked in white dress shirt navy blue tie and matching blue slacks his hair was combed over and greased with pomade his smile was crooked like the television stars of a bygone era he strode over gracefully until he was standing by my side looking down at the torn-up threads of what was once my tire looks like you're in a bit of a pickle he chuckled yeah I said I don't know the first thing about changing tires he held out his hand and looked down to the jack never a better time to learn them right now are you sure I asked I don't want to be a Bert why of course son it would be an honor I dropped the heavy Jack in his hand and his strength didn't drop an inch he went about changing the tire with proficiency he showed me where to place the jack how to loosen the bolts and lift the car he wouldn't let me touch a thing and dirtied up his white wardrobe without care he never big-eared or cussed like my old man used to do for even the smallest household tasks he simply smiled and went about his duty there you go he dropped the jack and the vehicle settled on the donor he kicked the tire to make sure it was firmed now he mused I don't suppose you'll get very far on that there donut but if you head up the road to Deer Run and hang a right you'll come across a mechanic's shop at the end of the road place called Henderson's I'll give him a call and let him know you're coming you'll fix you right up thank you so much I said I can't tell you how much this means to me goes to show you still good people in this world he said with a smile you're living proof I shook his hand and nodded respectfully I walked back to the car turned back to him hey what's your name so I can the door to the piggly-wiggly closed and I saw his shadow passed by the windows and disappear into the depths of the store a mother pushed her shopping cart by me the baby kicking wildly in the seat he was holding a spinner and he giggled and it made my heart smile I found the mechanic shop at the end of deer run easy enough and mr. Henderson sent me up with the closest tire he had that could match my set it ain't exact but it ought to do he said I pulled out my wallet and fished through my remaining cash most of it was gone with the gas hopefully I could cover it Henderson held out a patient hand no sir Henderson said you're already paid in full I argued with him but his southern pride wouldn't allow him to back down he explained to me that Roy Morrow offered to foot the bill is that the manager Piggly Wiggly yes sir he said the very one I can't let him pay for this I said he's already done enough you gonna have to take that up with him Henderson said thanks again I shook his hand and despite the grease and calluses and scars it was the smooth as flesh I've ever felt I wanted to go back to the Piggly Wiggly and thank Roy again for his kindness but it would have taken me out of the way I was worried about my grandparents and this flat took up more time than I'd hoped I figured that I'd come back on my way south and pay back my debt then I got into Myrtle Beach just as the Sun was setting and by the time I entered the hospital visiting hours were long over I'd come this far the nurses wouldn't stop me I waited until they were busy until slipping through the double doors when I entered I found my grandpa snoring in a chair positioned in the corner of the room I approached grandma and her eyes fluttered awake they sparkled upon seeing me Richi a voice cooed is that really you yes grandma I nearly cried it's me I never thought I'd see you again I'm here you see that Bethel rich is here with us I looked over to where she had turned her focus the room was empty except for the three of us not to mention I knew who Bethel was from photographs and stories she was grandma's sister she died just before I was born my grandmother used to always say that she gave her life so I could have mine that always made me feel guilty for breathing I pressed my lips against her hand and kissed it as she said he's really here my parents couldn't catch a flight back to the States until a week later so I made sure to watch over them once grandma was released from the hospital the next morning all of her tests came back fine but her mind was clearly scrambled after hitting her head on the lip of the tub a bruise not shot out of her forehead in an almost comic proportion I don't know if you've ever cared after a loved one suffering from dementia but I found it easier to play into her fantasies that way I wouldn't leave her all confused until she forgot about it again and moved on to the next thing sometimes she recognized me and other times she seemed to be horrified by my presence it was worse at night my grandpa was a proud man so he didn't let me help out a whole lot so my efforts were best provided when he wasn't around that's when my talents shined I slept in such a shallow state that even the quiet Creek from her Walker would wake me I'd leap out of bed and help it to the bathroom grab her from under the armpits and lower her to the seat she'd often make a mess and I'd clean her up some nights had awakened to the clatter of fine china then enter the dining room to find her sitting at the head of the table set for a feast the silverware was polished and placed meticulously she'd speak to each absent guest in turn mainly her father sister and a few people I didn't know I'd watch from beyond the shadows he she tilted the teapot pouring air into the cups I'd often stand in the shadows and watch I learned a lot about her life that way she'd recount stories that I didn't know she still had access to like how she got a toy rocket for our eighth birthday and the first time she'd popped it off it flew and hit her mother between the eyes or how her father took her to the World's Fair and they walked up the steps to see the New York skyline from Lady Liberty's crown she'd cackles so loud that my grandfather would wake up and escort her back to bed the party's just gettin started she'd say one night I woke to the sound of her crying and lept out of bed I thought I'd find her in the bathroom squirming around in a puddle of her blood a face streaked with manic crimson the bathroom was dark and empty and his sobs fluttered from around the far corner of the hallway like always I approached on soft feet to hide my entrance she was pleading through her tears bent over with her elbows on her knees speaking low in confidence like someone whispering a confession to a preacher I don't know what to do she said I'm worried for him no I don't think he knows I shifted my weight trying to get closer and the wood creaked underfoot she turned sharply to me and her face recoiled in fear she was shocked by the sight of me pale in the moonlight flooding through the window you're not supposed to be here she snarled I heard you crying I said I wanted to make sure you were all leave me alone she hissed I'm not ready you should get back to bed I said softly reaching for her forearm upon touching her skin she snapped her forearm away I'm not ready her eyes were wide and wild I'd never seen her like this she turned mad as if spitting venom in an attempt to ward me off she didn't recognize me as her fear was channeled into an unbridled rage that erupted out of nowhere I'm not ready I don't want to go that's okay I assured we can stay a little longer leave me alone I won't go with you I'm not ready a light came on in my grandpa's room and he hurried out to us what's going on what are you doing I don't know I stammered I was just trying to get her back into bed come on he whimpered with worried come on dear let's get back to bed I'm not ready I don't want to go he can't make me it's okay my love my grandfather cradled her in his arms and escorted her out of the chair it's all going to be okay he barely had to touch her and she moved to his whim it wasn't power or dominance or fear but reverence they would dance partners for life when he swayed to his right she'd step to her left she didn't repulsed his guidance but was lulled by it like a melody the door to their bedroom shut gently behind them and her cries were reduced to silence almost immediately I was left in utter despondence my parents came a few days later and took over the duties from my grandfather I had to return to Miami to get my stuff and flanked my parents that I had more exams I couldn't bring myself to tell them that I was going to drop out quite yet on my way down I wanted to stop by the old Piggly Wiggly and give Roy a proper thanks for going out of his way to help me out not to mention I wanted to pay him back somehow once I pulled off on the exit I stopped by one of the fruit stands and grabbed a peach cobbler perhaps Roy's wife if he had one he would appreciate it as I rolled into town I couldn't help but notice a strange nostalgia that crept deeper into my psyche the structures were the same but they weren't in their former glory they were dilapidated and ruinous the windows to the shops were boarded up and the mannequins set dusty eternally staring out into the empty streets barbecue grills were rusted and turned over on their sides absent of the smoky aroma of charred meat reaching into the heavens the street lighting hung absent of color or power in the town square and the clock atop the bank no longer counted the time when I reached the parking lot of the Piggly Wiggly I couldn't figure out what the hell it happened in only a week the pavement waved over growing roots and cracked over the shifting earth weeds and grass grew out of the concrete and streaks I got out of the car and took the peach cobbler with me my shadow hit underfoot the supermarket itself was just a structure without a sign peering through the spotted glass I could see one or two non-essential items like Crisco still on the shelves but it was absent of any life the roof had caved in some time ago and sharp beams jutted into the gray overcast skies I heard an old melody that poked my ears I recognized it as one my grandfather used to play on Saturday mornings Ambrose and his orchestra in the middle of a dream I followed the brass band around the corner of the building and the trumpets flowed across a small golden field from the open windows of an old Victorian house with a wraparound porch the wind blew the curtains out of the open windows the clouds dissipated and the colour returned to the earth I placed the cobbler on the porch banna stone knocked on the door a shadow raced across my peripheral vision and a young boy's giggle caused me to turn sharply I stared out across the empty overgrown field I shook it off and reached for the peach cobbler my fingers stopped upon touching the tray a slice had been carved out of the pie and only a divot remained the wind blew through my fingertips and the leaves rustled and shook I stood before a perfect day lost and alone in a ghost town you "The Town Without Time"
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